When I Didn’t Want To Be Rescued

I’ve started plenty of things that I never finished. I’ve quit jobs. I’ve prematurely shared my grandiose ideas with others, because it sounded better than “I actually have no idea.” I’ve made decisions quickly and changed my mind at double the speed. I would see others who stayed – in jobs, in relationships, in cities. […]

My Fears

Recently my fears were running rampant. I tried fending them off but this only seemed to make them more feral. So, I decided I would just invite them in, and allow them to be heard. And I listened. I fear that: maybe the reason why I have no idea what I’m doing is because I […]

When I Said Yes

You’d visit me, in my sleep, and even when I woke, like a knight to the rescue. You would ask me the same question, and I would reply with the same answer, “no”. I would tell you I wasn’t ready, I didn’t believe in me. I was just terrified, convinced I couldn’t live up to […]

When I Was Successful

I’ve started blogs, projects, jobs, careers. I’ve also ceased to continue them and in doing so, I felt as though I had failed. But every decision I made was calculated and meticulously thought out. I stopped my Tumblr blog because I didn’t enjoy the platform and I no longer felt connected to my words. I took a break until […]

Our deepest fear…

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. […]

When I Was More Than Enough

I’ve officially marked two weeks of my sabbatical. Initially, I felt as though I spent most of the days thinking a lot and doing very little. I said I was in the ‘ideation’ phase so thinking was part of the process. But then I thought, and thought and overthought and then started overthinking about how much I was […]

“As I aim for the stars, I realise I must also prepare for the journey there.” Note to self

When I Realised My Greatest Fear

Two weeks ago, I made a decision to resign. From work I love, a team I adore, and clients I wholeheartedly care for. In the months leading up to it, my fears berated me – Be more resilient, fight it, it’s normal to be unhappy with your job. Everyone is unhappy with their job. What will your […]

“Go gently.”

I received this advice from a friend when I was not ready to heed it. I didn’t feel I deserved to be gentle with myself, what with all the bad decisions and mistakes I’d made. Still, the advice was a seed planted slowly to cultivate over time until my mind started to adopt it as […]

When I Had It All

Another year to be grateful. I do not ask for anything in the new year. Wise travelling souls have taught me that I have it all. For, I have the freedom to dream – and – I have the opportunities to achieve. Now, my only wish, is for all others – That they too can […]